It has been almost 3 months since you and I have been together. It feels like as if it was just yesterday when I first saw your face. I was devastated to find out that you would be leaving soon shortly after we were together. I told myself that maybe, just maybe this is another challenge set for me to tackle on. Long distance relationship huh? Well, been there done that but things were just never right. The main reason is because of my insecurity and doubtfulness? I don't know.
The more memories we have create, the more dreadful it is for me to endure. Every step I take, every breath I take, reminds me of you. With you by my side, everything is just so calming. I have been waiting for a lifetime to meet the right one. Like seriously, why can't I just have a perfect relationship just for once?
I guess you would never know until you have experienced it yourself. In my circle of friends, some power couples made their relationships seem so effortlessly perfect, but who knows how much pain you would have to endure just to set foot on a stable relationship? Surprisingly, every part of me hopes my current relationship would last forever, or maybe long enough for us to love each other till the very end. Commitments were never my kind of thing, but for you, I am willing to commit and shower you with all my love.
Hold on just yet.
Yeap, this was a draft I wrote 6 months ago and I have just found it in my notes. What a pleasant surprise. I felt emotionally heavy, like all the excess baggage I left at the some airport of emotions finally caught up with me.
I want to break free. I want to live again.
Is it too much to ask for?
