Saturday 26 March 2016

Hardest Decision To Make




When I was young, I have never ever thought that entering college would be such a hassle. All I ever thought was that I would be able to meet a bunch of new people and live my life for the rest of the years in university. This is especially so when your friends told you how amazing college life is and whatsoever shit. Well, I guess people have sugarcoated the whole college life experience and kept shits laid down under the carpet, especially tv commercials.

Now when I have finally graduated from high school, I have come to realise that growing up is nothing less than terrifying to me. I woke up to the wave of responsibility descending on me. First there were money issues. I am a fully-responsible adult who should take care of his family and himself, in which it had me zero into the matter of my daily expenses in correspondence to that of my hard-earned wages. It is absolutely impossible for me to ask my parents to money every time just because I have overspent my money, I am indeed trying my best to kick off this bad habit out of my life before it gets worse.

Then, I had to make the biggest decision in my life, I had to decide what should I pursue in college. I remembered vividly that I wanted to do engineering, electronic and electrical engineering to be exact.  However, the dream of pursuing in the field of sciences has eventually faded before it even gets to incubate. This is because I have no talent or interests in the science subjects after all. So, I have resorted to American Degree Transfer Program. When I have finally made my decisions clear, my parents somehow heard from god knows who said that studying ADP is a risky option. In the end, taking foundation course was the only choice for me. Despite having to go through a tough time, I still got to enter my dream university which was really amazing.

To the youngsters out there reading my blog, my advice to you is do not go to education fairs for too many times as it would only bring you problems but nothing else. Period. Besides, money is really everything in this cruel world, as the saying goes, money makes the mare goes, work really hard in order to receive scholarships because tertiary education ain't cheap. If your parents are filthy rich, you can just skip that part.





Thursday 17 March 2016

Haters Gonna Hate

Haters gonna hate, stop judging if you're not perfect, you are not going to stop me from doing the things which I love the most. I may not be the best,  at least I accept my flaws, never take one's flaws against them. If I treat you the way that you did, you would not like it.

A person like you can never change my life, nobody will change just because of you. I don't mind your judgments, in fact, they will just make me even stronger than who I was. Stop wasting your time doing unnecessary things, nobody forced you to read my blog, nobody forced you to accept the things I have said, nobody forced you to give a damn to whatever I have done, please get a life dude,  stop wasting your time on my blog and judging me.

You can take everything away from me, but I will never stop reaching my goals.



Lost

It's been awhile since I last blogged, nothing much to say lately. Sometimes I just feel like I'm lost in the journey of my life. So lost...

The journey in my life, is just as mysterious as the idea of living. Life is but a dream. There are things we have to deal with everyday and there certainly things we wanna run away everyday. It is just like how i am telling myself that all would just be fine if i really wanted to and it all comes down to all the little small details in life that really matters. There is just so much that I have missed. So much that I wished I could relive those moments. But I know, life is a journey, ain't a destination. So, where do I wanna go from here? 

The inner part of me is collapsing. I felt the pain urging in my heart. It's been too hard to hold back the pain, so like the cloud lets it fall like the rain.